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[bitemefightme]

For yours and my sanity.

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He's so sorry

[bitemefightme]

Tatsuma did the last time. But I...

I dunno... I guess I don't know what else might come from this app. I don't know if the "other me" is stronger or not. He hospitalised a bunch of people last time. Tatsuma fought me on the rooftops, because I was working on killing someone.

....That's what I was told, anyway...

... shh, shh, he's doing fine

[angealwings]

I apologize for making you relive that. [ IT reads as though Orion is having a panic attack, or something akin to it, and Andrew is not okay with himself for causing it. ] It was not something you chose to do, and, especially if it came out of nowhere, you could not have prevented it.

Was that recent?

[bitemefightme]

[Not so much of a panic attack as it is just being filled to the brim with regret.]

Yea, it was recent. The end of January. He just... took over. For about a week or so. I wasn't even a little aware. Others brought it to my attention afterwards and just...

I can't remember a thing from it.

[angealwings]

Did those others tell you what you were acting like, at the time? So that more of us can be on the lookout.

[ Yes. He's offering. ]

[bitemefightme]

Tatsuma told me I was just beating people senselessly while laughing, like it was a game. When I shot someone, Tatsuma lured me away to stop me.

Biffy told me that I was definitely different, and he could tell right away it wasn't 'me'. I was trying to start a fight, but then resorted to asking... weird questions. For some reason, I went to hit him, but stopped mid-strike.

[angealwings]

I see. And there was only one episode of this? Or has it happened more than once?

[bitemefightme]

Far as I know, it was just the one time. But he talks sometimes, too. So... I dunno. I can't really be sure one way or the other.

[angealwings]

Excuse me for the question, but do you live alone? If you have a roommate of some sort, whether or not on the app, they can be on the lookout for strange behavior. If you phrase it right, they can send a text before whatever it is that makes people forget the weirdness kicks in.

[bitemefightme]

Yea, I live alone. I've actually... lived on my own for about a year.

[Holy shit, even he has to admit he's impressed. He's usually never made it more than a few months before. Excuse him while he looks at all of it. Good people really do make all the difference, don't they?]

Yea, a year. I'll be damned.

What do you mean by... phrase it right?

[angealwings]

Congratulations, I assume?

And I mean that if you are trying to get people without the app to keep an eye on you, you want to phrase it so that there won't be anything so out of the ordinary for them to forget as soon as you turn your back on the explanation. Not an issue with people who do have the app, of course.

[bitemefightme]

[Oh, man, you're telling him to think before he speaks, Andrew. There is no promises that it will happen. It's not hard to outfox Orion into talking about his shit.]

Uhh... Yea, sure. Though... let's just stick to people on the app so I don't have to worry about it. I'm not smart enough to shut up when I start talking.

[angealwings]

[ He'll learn. Plus, it doesn't hurt to occasionally try to aspire for more than you're used to? Or something along those lines. ]

Understood. You have a better idea of who you meet on a daily or even semi-regular basis. Those would be the people who would be best suited to keep an eye on you.

[bitemefightme]

Yea, that's about... four people.

[He does not run into many people on a constant basis on this app.]

[angealwings]

Five people paying attention is better than one.

[bitemefightme]

Wha- I said four.

.......

Where did you get five?

[angealwings]

Four people, plus you. Because you'd be paying attention, too.

[bitemefightme]

That doesn't mean I'm reliable. If he can take control at any time, I still lose.

[angealwings]

But does that mean that you should not be paying attention to things out of the ordinary? Perhaps there were signs the first time, and you didn't know what they meant, and now you will be able to realize they're happening if you're paying attention.

[bitemefightme]

Of course I'll pay attention! I never said I wouldn't. Just... It doesn't mean anything. It doesn't count from me, if I don't even know the first thing to look for.

[angealwings]

So long as you try, it counts from you most of all.

[bitemefightme]

Not if he wins. Not if he hurts other people. If no matter how hard I try, I still fail, then I still let everyone down. It's not like I have some shock collar to taze me if I get out of hand as a failsafe.

[angealwings]

If that happens again, then his first victim would have been you. Even if you don't have physical wounds or scars to show people for it, that doesn't mean you got away unscathed.

You would have tried, and you would have fought. Until there is better knowledge how to stop it, that's all that can be asked of you.

Besides, what happens if you do realize something is wrong and go to Biffy before it's too late and he keeps things under control this time?

[bitemefightme]

But what if I go to Biffy and the other me turns on him? What if it's too late no matter what?

[He's not buying that first victim line. Not one bit.]

[angealwings]

They are possibilities. But not the only possibilities. And if you focus on only the worst ones, you don't get anything done.

[ And yet. It's true. ]

[bitemefightme]

[Orion stares at his phone, very frustrated. It's not like this shit comes with a manual.

He can't believe he's about to say this.]

Is there a way to get more memories faster?

[GOD, he can't believe he's saying this.]

If I don't know how to control it now.... maybe my past self does.