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[bitemefightme]

For yours and my sanity.

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[angealwings]

I will keep the shared information updated, though if I do find something that can be directly assisted, yes, I believe I will, Orion.

Has something similar to that happened in the memories before this city?

[bitemefightme]

[Something similar?]

I don't know if it can be called the same. But... I remember a few things. A lady who said something about creating monsters. And just.... some things I'm less than proud of. Things I would give anything to prevent again.

[angealwings]

Possibly not.

If you are faced with that situation again, or one similar, would you choose differently now?

CW: split personality, death, suicide ideation

[bitemefightme]

[Not that Andrew can see it, but Orion frowns. With all the things that have lead up until now, history may well be getting ready to repeat itself. The collar, the Other Self, Lilly in the fog asking him to kill her again. There's too much in play that Orion can't guarantee that he can prevent it from happening again. No matter how hard he tries. Dark can overpower him, as he did that one day, no, week, sending who-knows-how-many to the hospital.

There's no guarantee, and that unsettles something beneath Orion's skin. Could he hurt someone else like he did Lilly? Would he someday end up killing Biffy? It worries him. He'll need to talk with Biffy about it later.

For now, though... words he hasn't said in months will be texted to Andrew.]

If it came down to it, I hope I could kill myself before I could cause that much damage again. If I couldn't stop me. And keep fighting it with all I got until then.

... Orion...

[angealwings]

Fighting it all along the way sounds like a good option.

Is there nobody else who can stop you from doing the damage? Short of killing you.

He's so sorry

[bitemefightme]

Tatsuma did the last time. But I...

I dunno... I guess I don't know what else might come from this app. I don't know if the "other me" is stronger or not. He hospitalised a bunch of people last time. Tatsuma fought me on the rooftops, because I was working on killing someone.

....That's what I was told, anyway...

... shh, shh, he's doing fine

[angealwings]

I apologize for making you relive that. [ IT reads as though Orion is having a panic attack, or something akin to it, and Andrew is not okay with himself for causing it. ] It was not something you chose to do, and, especially if it came out of nowhere, you could not have prevented it.

Was that recent?

[bitemefightme]

[Not so much of a panic attack as it is just being filled to the brim with regret.]

Yea, it was recent. The end of January. He just... took over. For about a week or so. I wasn't even a little aware. Others brought it to my attention afterwards and just...

I can't remember a thing from it.

[angealwings]

Did those others tell you what you were acting like, at the time? So that more of us can be on the lookout.

[ Yes. He's offering. ]

[bitemefightme]

Tatsuma told me I was just beating people senselessly while laughing, like it was a game. When I shot someone, Tatsuma lured me away to stop me.

Biffy told me that I was definitely different, and he could tell right away it wasn't 'me'. I was trying to start a fight, but then resorted to asking... weird questions. For some reason, I went to hit him, but stopped mid-strike.

[angealwings]

I see. And there was only one episode of this? Or has it happened more than once?

[bitemefightme]

Far as I know, it was just the one time. But he talks sometimes, too. So... I dunno. I can't really be sure one way or the other.

[angealwings]

Excuse me for the question, but do you live alone? If you have a roommate of some sort, whether or not on the app, they can be on the lookout for strange behavior. If you phrase it right, they can send a text before whatever it is that makes people forget the weirdness kicks in.

[bitemefightme]

Yea, I live alone. I've actually... lived on my own for about a year.

[Holy shit, even he has to admit he's impressed. He's usually never made it more than a few months before. Excuse him while he looks at all of it. Good people really do make all the difference, don't they?]

Yea, a year. I'll be damned.

What do you mean by... phrase it right?

[angealwings]

Congratulations, I assume?

And I mean that if you are trying to get people without the app to keep an eye on you, you want to phrase it so that there won't be anything so out of the ordinary for them to forget as soon as you turn your back on the explanation. Not an issue with people who do have the app, of course.

[bitemefightme]

[Oh, man, you're telling him to think before he speaks, Andrew. There is no promises that it will happen. It's not hard to outfox Orion into talking about his shit.]

Uhh... Yea, sure. Though... let's just stick to people on the app so I don't have to worry about it. I'm not smart enough to shut up when I start talking.

[angealwings]

[ He'll learn. Plus, it doesn't hurt to occasionally try to aspire for more than you're used to? Or something along those lines. ]

Understood. You have a better idea of who you meet on a daily or even semi-regular basis. Those would be the people who would be best suited to keep an eye on you.

[bitemefightme]

Yea, that's about... four people.

[He does not run into many people on a constant basis on this app.]

[angealwings]

Five people paying attention is better than one.

[bitemefightme]

Wha- I said four.

.......

Where did you get five?

[angealwings]

Four people, plus you. Because you'd be paying attention, too.

[bitemefightme]

That doesn't mean I'm reliable. If he can take control at any time, I still lose.

[angealwings]

But does that mean that you should not be paying attention to things out of the ordinary? Perhaps there were signs the first time, and you didn't know what they meant, and now you will be able to realize they're happening if you're paying attention.

[bitemefightme]

Of course I'll pay attention! I never said I wouldn't. Just... It doesn't mean anything. It doesn't count from me, if I don't even know the first thing to look for.

[angealwings]

So long as you try, it counts from you most of all.