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[bitemefightme]

For yours and my sanity.

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[angealwings]

[ He'll learn. Plus, it doesn't hurt to occasionally try to aspire for more than you're used to? Or something along those lines. ]

Understood. You have a better idea of who you meet on a daily or even semi-regular basis. Those would be the people who would be best suited to keep an eye on you.

[bitemefightme]

Yea, that's about... four people.

[He does not run into many people on a constant basis on this app.]

[angealwings]

Five people paying attention is better than one.

[bitemefightme]

Wha- I said four.

.......

Where did you get five?

[angealwings]

Four people, plus you. Because you'd be paying attention, too.

[bitemefightme]

That doesn't mean I'm reliable. If he can take control at any time, I still lose.

[angealwings]

But does that mean that you should not be paying attention to things out of the ordinary? Perhaps there were signs the first time, and you didn't know what they meant, and now you will be able to realize they're happening if you're paying attention.

[bitemefightme]

Of course I'll pay attention! I never said I wouldn't. Just... It doesn't mean anything. It doesn't count from me, if I don't even know the first thing to look for.

[angealwings]

So long as you try, it counts from you most of all.

[bitemefightme]

Not if he wins. Not if he hurts other people. If no matter how hard I try, I still fail, then I still let everyone down. It's not like I have some shock collar to taze me if I get out of hand as a failsafe.

[angealwings]

If that happens again, then his first victim would have been you. Even if you don't have physical wounds or scars to show people for it, that doesn't mean you got away unscathed.

You would have tried, and you would have fought. Until there is better knowledge how to stop it, that's all that can be asked of you.

Besides, what happens if you do realize something is wrong and go to Biffy before it's too late and he keeps things under control this time?

[bitemefightme]

But what if I go to Biffy and the other me turns on him? What if it's too late no matter what?

[He's not buying that first victim line. Not one bit.]

[angealwings]

They are possibilities. But not the only possibilities. And if you focus on only the worst ones, you don't get anything done.

[ And yet. It's true. ]

[bitemefightme]

[Orion stares at his phone, very frustrated. It's not like this shit comes with a manual.

He can't believe he's about to say this.]

Is there a way to get more memories faster?

[GOD, he can't believe he's saying this.]

If I don't know how to control it now.... maybe my past self does.

[angealwings]

[ Andrew considers the question for a long moment.

Then. ]

I don't know. Some memories seem somewhat reminiscent of recent experiences or conversations, so if you remember something from a situation that can be recreated, to one degree or another, that might trigger further memory?