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CHARACTER: CANON SECTION
NAME: Heine Rammsteiner
AGE: Physically late teens to early twenties, with mentality to mostly match. Actually still in adolescence (about five or seven years-ish?)
CANON: Dogs: Bullets and Carnage
NAME: Heine Rammsteiner
AGE: Physically late teens to early twenties, with mentality to mostly match. Actually still in adolescence (about five or seven years-ish?)
CANON: Dogs: Bullets and Carnage
CANON HISTORY:
Heine and the other children were created as "test tube babies" to test the effectiveness of the Keroberos spine, in the attempts to replicate the original. His series was given the name "Rammsteiner." His first memory was waking up to everything being pitch black, with the collar wrapped around his neck, and unable to recall anything before that point. He walked down a dark hallway to a lit room and found a group of other children, all with collars like himself. None of the other children remember anything before waking up either. The children were subjected to a fight against a massive-standing monster where they suffered multiple, severe injuries. Which reveals their super healing capabilities.
Angelika Einstürzen ran the experiments on them and was called Mother. She calls the children weapons outright. She forces them to endure fight after fight, instructing them on their newfound abilities and promises her love in exchange if the children should succeed. The fights encouraged a more psychotic sensation in the children, stemmed from the Keroberos Spine's they wear (the collars). She often would hug and smother Heine and the other children to trigger their berserker modes.
They are proven to be exceptionally skilled in combat from the start. He was a calming voice of reason when trying to get Lilly out of berserker mode. And often stood to protect Giovanni. After the bloodshed, when the remaining children came back to their senses, Lilly would start crying and told Heine she was scared because she couldn't understand what was going on. He ended up having to combat Lilly when she completely went out of control in her berserker state, trying to get her to come back out of it. He shoves his arm in her mouth and pins her to the floor to try and subdue her. When she snaps out of it, she expresses her fears and starts to cry, in which Heine kisses her cheek to console her.
Even Einstürzen is impressed that he managed to subdue an insane Lilly without going into berserker mode himself. Because of this, he was offered to become the primary experiment for the Master Keroberos spine, which he was told would help him save everyone if he succeeded. He accepted the procedure, enduring intense pain and developing a "second personality", the darker Heine, who offers him "power" to allow him to escape. Once Heine "passes the test," Einstürzen tells the other children that they are no longer needed, and orders them to kill each other, so that she may love the last one standing. The Dark Heine takes over and busts him from the chair he's been bonded to, and goes to tear the other children to shreds. When Heine comes to, he has torn Lilly in half, her insides resting in his hands. He clutches onto the top half of her dead body as he realises he killed her. Dark Heine tells Heine that he saved Lilly with the power he wanted.
The Master Keroberos Spine constantly sends him the impulse to kill, although he has been able to keep it somewhat in check in his more recent years (and even moreso as the story progresses). One of the guns he carries used to belong to Lilly, the white one he keeps on a chain.
Having been built to be some form of super weapon or soldier, with his recovery, fighting, and pain tolerance capabilities, it can be assumed that the dark side of him, being a result of the Keroberos Spine, is the direct realisation of this superiour skillset.
He blames himself for killing Lilly, and most of the people he had to destroy to escape the lab before further damage could be done. He left his brother, Giovanni, behind and Giovanni resents him for escaping. Because of their rough history, and Giovanni always knowing how to provoke Heine, Heine usually tries to kill Giovanni on sight, practically going into berserk mode.
He claims that the first time he saw the sky, it left a foul aftertaste in his mouth.
He resides in an old, rundown church with the Ernst (Bishop), Badou, Nill, and eventually Naoto. They pick up odd jobs around the slums, particularly from an old lady, Liza, who runs a sector who frequently requests assistance with jobs that usually end in a blood bath. Whether she does that intentionally is not revealed. But, she seems to know and understand the kind of person Heine is and still assigns him the jobs regardless.
He first met Nill when he was strolling the slums, figuring she was an escaped prostitute. He was prepared to walk on until the robe she was wearing became torn and he saw her wings. Seeing that she was like him, a genetic experiment, he moved in to rescue her from her captors and took her back home. He learned she couldn't speak, which is due to the fact that she is a genetic creation, thus something had to be taken from her to make her not superiour to her creators. To which he tells her that he's the same as she is. When she moves to comfort him, he panics and ends up throwing himself back from her, begging her not to touch him and entering a panic attack as he flashes back to remembering Lilly.
However, his panic attacks do not slow down his reaction time to shooting attackers. Although, after the second time he saves her, and takes her to live in the church, he seems to be unaffected by her touching him anymore, suddenly adjusting to her presence. Before meeting Nill, Heine was incessantly seeking to find the entrance to the deep underground.
He tends to have to come and save Badou often from trouble that the latter keeps getting himself wrapped into for information collecting.
When he sees that Einsturzen has created another (or has preserved) Lilly, he starts flashbacking and starts asking what all of his friends are doing stuck in test tubes, as though talking to them directly. It takes him a moment to snap out of it, and Giovanni regaining consciousness seems to help boost him back along into fight mode, as he pulls a gun on Giovanni instantly. He has his suspicions that Einstürzen is trying to wipe the city off the earth before emerging to the surface, in a process of creating something new only to destroy it.
Einstürzen reveals to Heine that he is not the "real" Heine Rammsteiner. And this is hinted toward the Dark Heine as well that his current state is not his true personality, his true sense of being. It is revealed that the original Heine died from the fall on the tower. Unfortunately, the canon has been put into hiatus and we have no further details beyond this point to Heine's history.
Toward the final chapters available, Heine seems to be under mind control to Einstürzen and attacks his comrades.
CANON PERSONALITY:
He tends to be callous and violent, especially while on a job. He's quick to pull the trigger and doesn't hesitate to do what needs to be done to solve the situation, often ending in vast amounts of carnage. He even has a sense of eerie calm when attacking and killing those not related to his past. Such as calmly demanding information while holding the other man at gunpoint, and then sighing with an easy, "And I didn't even break his face," when he was attacked for his aggression on a Club Owner. He's not even more than just slightly annoyed when he's outnumbered. He will not harm an innocent, though. Cocky and defiant. He seems to take quick offense to offhand nicknames or comments, such as being called "White hair" or "Bleachy" by one of the guys he'd defeated, and for being lumped in with Badou. And swears often, with an Excuse you? attitude He uses snark frequently. He makes passing threats such as offering to screw an alarm clock into Badou's empty eye socket so he'll stop being late. He's not above trolling by any stretch of the imagination and will throw the occasional taunt around.
When he's been captured, he is completely calm and silent, observing and waiting for when he needs to act. He's also blunt and doesn't care if what he says offends people. He will lose his cool if someone pulls the trigger on one of his guns. He retaliated in one instance of such by biting the man's face and ripping his cheek off without any qualms about it. In berserk mode, he can be seen giving a rather chilling grin as he proceeds to destroy anyone in his line of sight. Heine seems to have something of a split personality, a side of him that taunts him for his past (possibly restrained by the collar) and wants to do nothing but kill. The dark side is more maniacal. He seems to think that there's nothing wrong with, nor expect repercussions for, beating someone within an inch of their life so long as they're able to "recover decently".
After his darkside subsides, he seems to return back to normal as he laments some aspect of his past, particularly toward killing Lilly. When called out for his sulking after such things, he usually just redirects the statement in some way back at the asker.
Because of the massacre from his past, he doesn't believe it's possible for him to protect or save anyone, especially because of the way he killed Lilly after taking on the Master Spine. No matter how much he wanted to protect everyone back then, he failed. And he perpetually blames himself for it. In fact, he constantly seeks death and when he hears that Naoto's sword might be able to kill his species, he inquires about it. His dark side, on the other hand, has a higher intention of fighting and self preservation, and has even stopped an oncoming blade with his teeth with relative ease.
He tends to appear rather innocent and quiet when not in the midst of battle. And comes off as broody when he talks about himself, due to his previous traumas. He complains about how the collar on his neck hurts, or how when he sleeps, he can only see the things he wishes he could forget. He resents living where he had killed off most of his group before. He tends to open up to Nill, and will apologise when he realises that him reflecting on his past is making her sad. He shows a very gentle side to those who have gone through the same past as himself of genetic mutation. This is especially so for Nill, and later Naoto.
He keeps bandages wrapped around his neck, as he hates his collar and does his best to keep it hidden. The collar, of course, also reveals who and what he is, making it problematic with other people as well.
He has a strong hatred for being touched by women, and will almost instantly go into panic mode when it happens, with the exceptions of Nill and Naoto. A woman who stands within arms reach will immediately put him on edge and make him keep an eye on her. Despite his phobia of women, it doesn't stop him from catching Naoto by her wrist to keep her from falling when she faints (Although he seems rather annoyed by it.) And then dropping her anyway when she's closer to the ground. He mentions how it's been so peaceful lately, enough for him to be able to sit around and complain. How it used to be much harder back then, when people could easily disappear or be driven insane.
Because of the aforementioned phobia, he doesn't get along with Naoto, (although it gets better over time) and has come to taunt her on more than one occasion. Saying things like, "Maybe you're just like me," and other variants just to get under her skin.
When Naoto was being manipulated, Heine allowed her to stab him, and reached out and caressed her face, asking what was wrong, trying to get her to snap out of it, resembling the similar methods he used on Lilly. But he still has a panicked reaction when the mind-controlled Naoto reaches out to touch him back.
He's not very good at a poker face. When he's being barraged by questions from Magato about being Naoto's boyfriend (which he doesn't answer any of them and just persists to ignore him), when Magato mentions the scar on Naoto's chest, Heine's expression changes because he rememebers seeing it. So he doesn't cover up any of his reactions very well. He is capable of being distracted when lost in thought or neutral to the situation, making it more likely for someone to strike him if they take advantage of such a situation.
Heine is also pretty perceptive, such as being able to tell when Giovanni is being controlled by someone else, namely Herbst in this case, and being able to tell the bait to follow him is a trap without a doubt.
Badou declares that, when they first met, Heine was prickly and messed up in both body and soul. Heine gets called out for being gloomy by Badou when he complains about going up to the surface, because it's a hassle and he doesn't like the sun. When Badou sews on a button to Naoto's jacket for Nill, Heine declares, "This is the first time I've ever had heart-felt admiration for you." Heine ends up laughing when Badou scolds Naoto for not sewing the button herself, calling her a muscle-bound tranny.
He reprimands others loudly for acting without thinking, like how Badou always seems to pull anyone around him into the danger he's personally facing. In which, he not only yells, but starts kicking Badou as well (although, this was likely triggered more because Nill happened to be in the line of fire when Badou was running away.)
When Bishop is being attacked by Liza for repercussions, an injured Heine approaches the scene to defend him. After making sure that Bishop isn't dying, he tells Liza to shoot him, since he too was an experiment, prepared to pay for the "wrongdoings of his kin." When he is asked what he will do if she doesn't shoot, he promises to kill the woman who started the whole project, Einstürzen.
Overall, he tends to come across as a punk, moody, and broody brat with a mostly Devil May Care attitude that is only overridden when it involves Nill, his past, or personal attacks. He's not inclined to go out of his way for others unless it has something to do with his past or he's close to them.
SKILLS/ABILITIES:
Rapid Healing: Due to his genetic altering (Keroberos Spine?), Heine has rapid healing in which he recovers in just seconds of injury, as displayed by a gunshot taken by the hand in the beginning of the manga. Confirmed that destruction the head or Naoto's sword will cause significant harm, but appear to be the only means of defeating this. In the Prelude, it is shown that his body absorbs the bullets and he ends up puking/coughing them back up.
Hand to hand combat: He is skilled in melee attacks, from kicks, to punches, to using the chain attached to his gun to strangle people with.
Super strength: He is able to break apart a full armlock cuff set in his pure rage.
Higher pain tolerance: He feels pain, he just chooses to ignore it, probably due to his healing capabilities, and continues through battle with very few problems in the physical suffering department.
Skilled with guns: Has accurate precision in shooting hand guns, with both hands.
Heine and the other children were created as "test tube babies" to test the effectiveness of the Keroberos spine, in the attempts to replicate the original. His series was given the name "Rammsteiner." His first memory was waking up to everything being pitch black, with the collar wrapped around his neck, and unable to recall anything before that point. He walked down a dark hallway to a lit room and found a group of other children, all with collars like himself. None of the other children remember anything before waking up either. The children were subjected to a fight against a massive-standing monster where they suffered multiple, severe injuries. Which reveals their super healing capabilities.
Angelika Einstürzen ran the experiments on them and was called Mother. She calls the children weapons outright. She forces them to endure fight after fight, instructing them on their newfound abilities and promises her love in exchange if the children should succeed. The fights encouraged a more psychotic sensation in the children, stemmed from the Keroberos Spine's they wear (the collars). She often would hug and smother Heine and the other children to trigger their berserker modes.
They are proven to be exceptionally skilled in combat from the start. He was a calming voice of reason when trying to get Lilly out of berserker mode. And often stood to protect Giovanni. After the bloodshed, when the remaining children came back to their senses, Lilly would start crying and told Heine she was scared because she couldn't understand what was going on. He ended up having to combat Lilly when she completely went out of control in her berserker state, trying to get her to come back out of it. He shoves his arm in her mouth and pins her to the floor to try and subdue her. When she snaps out of it, she expresses her fears and starts to cry, in which Heine kisses her cheek to console her.
Even Einstürzen is impressed that he managed to subdue an insane Lilly without going into berserker mode himself. Because of this, he was offered to become the primary experiment for the Master Keroberos spine, which he was told would help him save everyone if he succeeded. He accepted the procedure, enduring intense pain and developing a "second personality", the darker Heine, who offers him "power" to allow him to escape. Once Heine "passes the test," Einstürzen tells the other children that they are no longer needed, and orders them to kill each other, so that she may love the last one standing. The Dark Heine takes over and busts him from the chair he's been bonded to, and goes to tear the other children to shreds. When Heine comes to, he has torn Lilly in half, her insides resting in his hands. He clutches onto the top half of her dead body as he realises he killed her. Dark Heine tells Heine that he saved Lilly with the power he wanted.
The Master Keroberos Spine constantly sends him the impulse to kill, although he has been able to keep it somewhat in check in his more recent years (and even moreso as the story progresses). One of the guns he carries used to belong to Lilly, the white one he keeps on a chain.
Having been built to be some form of super weapon or soldier, with his recovery, fighting, and pain tolerance capabilities, it can be assumed that the dark side of him, being a result of the Keroberos Spine, is the direct realisation of this superiour skillset.
He blames himself for killing Lilly, and most of the people he had to destroy to escape the lab before further damage could be done. He left his brother, Giovanni, behind and Giovanni resents him for escaping. Because of their rough history, and Giovanni always knowing how to provoke Heine, Heine usually tries to kill Giovanni on sight, practically going into berserk mode.
He claims that the first time he saw the sky, it left a foul aftertaste in his mouth.
He resides in an old, rundown church with the Ernst (Bishop), Badou, Nill, and eventually Naoto. They pick up odd jobs around the slums, particularly from an old lady, Liza, who runs a sector who frequently requests assistance with jobs that usually end in a blood bath. Whether she does that intentionally is not revealed. But, she seems to know and understand the kind of person Heine is and still assigns him the jobs regardless.
He first met Nill when he was strolling the slums, figuring she was an escaped prostitute. He was prepared to walk on until the robe she was wearing became torn and he saw her wings. Seeing that she was like him, a genetic experiment, he moved in to rescue her from her captors and took her back home. He learned she couldn't speak, which is due to the fact that she is a genetic creation, thus something had to be taken from her to make her not superiour to her creators. To which he tells her that he's the same as she is. When she moves to comfort him, he panics and ends up throwing himself back from her, begging her not to touch him and entering a panic attack as he flashes back to remembering Lilly.
However, his panic attacks do not slow down his reaction time to shooting attackers. Although, after the second time he saves her, and takes her to live in the church, he seems to be unaffected by her touching him anymore, suddenly adjusting to her presence. Before meeting Nill, Heine was incessantly seeking to find the entrance to the deep underground.
He tends to have to come and save Badou often from trouble that the latter keeps getting himself wrapped into for information collecting.
When he sees that Einsturzen has created another (or has preserved) Lilly, he starts flashbacking and starts asking what all of his friends are doing stuck in test tubes, as though talking to them directly. It takes him a moment to snap out of it, and Giovanni regaining consciousness seems to help boost him back along into fight mode, as he pulls a gun on Giovanni instantly. He has his suspicions that Einstürzen is trying to wipe the city off the earth before emerging to the surface, in a process of creating something new only to destroy it.
Einstürzen reveals to Heine that he is not the "real" Heine Rammsteiner. And this is hinted toward the Dark Heine as well that his current state is not his true personality, his true sense of being. It is revealed that the original Heine died from the fall on the tower. Unfortunately, the canon has been put into hiatus and we have no further details beyond this point to Heine's history.
Toward the final chapters available, Heine seems to be under mind control to Einstürzen and attacks his comrades.
CANON PERSONALITY:
He tends to be callous and violent, especially while on a job. He's quick to pull the trigger and doesn't hesitate to do what needs to be done to solve the situation, often ending in vast amounts of carnage. He even has a sense of eerie calm when attacking and killing those not related to his past. Such as calmly demanding information while holding the other man at gunpoint, and then sighing with an easy, "And I didn't even break his face," when he was attacked for his aggression on a Club Owner. He's not even more than just slightly annoyed when he's outnumbered. He will not harm an innocent, though. Cocky and defiant. He seems to take quick offense to offhand nicknames or comments, such as being called "White hair" or "Bleachy" by one of the guys he'd defeated, and for being lumped in with Badou. And swears often, with an Excuse you? attitude He uses snark frequently. He makes passing threats such as offering to screw an alarm clock into Badou's empty eye socket so he'll stop being late. He's not above trolling by any stretch of the imagination and will throw the occasional taunt around.
When he's been captured, he is completely calm and silent, observing and waiting for when he needs to act. He's also blunt and doesn't care if what he says offends people. He will lose his cool if someone pulls the trigger on one of his guns. He retaliated in one instance of such by biting the man's face and ripping his cheek off without any qualms about it. In berserk mode, he can be seen giving a rather chilling grin as he proceeds to destroy anyone in his line of sight. Heine seems to have something of a split personality, a side of him that taunts him for his past (possibly restrained by the collar) and wants to do nothing but kill. The dark side is more maniacal. He seems to think that there's nothing wrong with, nor expect repercussions for, beating someone within an inch of their life so long as they're able to "recover decently".
After his darkside subsides, he seems to return back to normal as he laments some aspect of his past, particularly toward killing Lilly. When called out for his sulking after such things, he usually just redirects the statement in some way back at the asker.
Because of the massacre from his past, he doesn't believe it's possible for him to protect or save anyone, especially because of the way he killed Lilly after taking on the Master Spine. No matter how much he wanted to protect everyone back then, he failed. And he perpetually blames himself for it. In fact, he constantly seeks death and when he hears that Naoto's sword might be able to kill his species, he inquires about it. His dark side, on the other hand, has a higher intention of fighting and self preservation, and has even stopped an oncoming blade with his teeth with relative ease.
He tends to appear rather innocent and quiet when not in the midst of battle. And comes off as broody when he talks about himself, due to his previous traumas. He complains about how the collar on his neck hurts, or how when he sleeps, he can only see the things he wishes he could forget. He resents living where he had killed off most of his group before. He tends to open up to Nill, and will apologise when he realises that him reflecting on his past is making her sad. He shows a very gentle side to those who have gone through the same past as himself of genetic mutation. This is especially so for Nill, and later Naoto.
He keeps bandages wrapped around his neck, as he hates his collar and does his best to keep it hidden. The collar, of course, also reveals who and what he is, making it problematic with other people as well.
He has a strong hatred for being touched by women, and will almost instantly go into panic mode when it happens, with the exceptions of Nill and Naoto. A woman who stands within arms reach will immediately put him on edge and make him keep an eye on her. Despite his phobia of women, it doesn't stop him from catching Naoto by her wrist to keep her from falling when she faints (Although he seems rather annoyed by it.) And then dropping her anyway when she's closer to the ground. He mentions how it's been so peaceful lately, enough for him to be able to sit around and complain. How it used to be much harder back then, when people could easily disappear or be driven insane.
Because of the aforementioned phobia, he doesn't get along with Naoto, (although it gets better over time) and has come to taunt her on more than one occasion. Saying things like, "Maybe you're just like me," and other variants just to get under her skin.
When Naoto was being manipulated, Heine allowed her to stab him, and reached out and caressed her face, asking what was wrong, trying to get her to snap out of it, resembling the similar methods he used on Lilly. But he still has a panicked reaction when the mind-controlled Naoto reaches out to touch him back.
He's not very good at a poker face. When he's being barraged by questions from Magato about being Naoto's boyfriend (which he doesn't answer any of them and just persists to ignore him), when Magato mentions the scar on Naoto's chest, Heine's expression changes because he rememebers seeing it. So he doesn't cover up any of his reactions very well. He is capable of being distracted when lost in thought or neutral to the situation, making it more likely for someone to strike him if they take advantage of such a situation.
Heine is also pretty perceptive, such as being able to tell when Giovanni is being controlled by someone else, namely Herbst in this case, and being able to tell the bait to follow him is a trap without a doubt.
Badou declares that, when they first met, Heine was prickly and messed up in both body and soul. Heine gets called out for being gloomy by Badou when he complains about going up to the surface, because it's a hassle and he doesn't like the sun. When Badou sews on a button to Naoto's jacket for Nill, Heine declares, "This is the first time I've ever had heart-felt admiration for you." Heine ends up laughing when Badou scolds Naoto for not sewing the button herself, calling her a muscle-bound tranny.
He reprimands others loudly for acting without thinking, like how Badou always seems to pull anyone around him into the danger he's personally facing. In which, he not only yells, but starts kicking Badou as well (although, this was likely triggered more because Nill happened to be in the line of fire when Badou was running away.)
When Bishop is being attacked by Liza for repercussions, an injured Heine approaches the scene to defend him. After making sure that Bishop isn't dying, he tells Liza to shoot him, since he too was an experiment, prepared to pay for the "wrongdoings of his kin." When he is asked what he will do if she doesn't shoot, he promises to kill the woman who started the whole project, Einstürzen.
Overall, he tends to come across as a punk, moody, and broody brat with a mostly Devil May Care attitude that is only overridden when it involves Nill, his past, or personal attacks. He's not inclined to go out of his way for others unless it has something to do with his past or he's close to them.
SKILLS/ABILITIES:
Rapid Healing: Due to his genetic altering (Keroberos Spine?), Heine has rapid healing in which he recovers in just seconds of injury, as displayed by a gunshot taken by the hand in the beginning of the manga. Confirmed that destruction the head or Naoto's sword will cause significant harm, but appear to be the only means of defeating this. In the Prelude, it is shown that his body absorbs the bullets and he ends up puking/coughing them back up.
Hand to hand combat: He is skilled in melee attacks, from kicks, to punches, to using the chain attached to his gun to strangle people with.
Super strength: He is able to break apart a full armlock cuff set in his pure rage.
Higher pain tolerance: He feels pain, he just chooses to ignore it, probably due to his healing capabilities, and continues through battle with very few problems in the physical suffering department.
Skilled with guns: Has accurate precision in shooting hand guns, with both hands.
CHARACTER: AU SECTION
AU NAME: Orion Jacobson
AU AGE: 25
PHYSICAL DIFFERENCES: His eyes will be ice blue for his albinism rather than stark red.
AU NAME: Orion Jacobson
AU AGE: 25
PHYSICAL DIFFERENCES: His eyes will be ice blue for his albinism rather than stark red.
AU HISTORY:
Orion has lead something of an interesting life. Born as an albino and generally raised in Rapid City, South Dakota. He first started responding to voices no one else could hear late in his eighth year. Initially, his parents just chalked it up to some imaginary friend. But, then he started displaying characteristics of seeing things others couldn't, often tugging at his mother's shirt to look at whatever he was seeing, or sometimes having fits of screams and crying over the hallucinations, reactions that could almost be described as having night terrors while being awake. When he had difficulty being soothed back to calm more than a handful of times, they took him in to a therapist, who recommended he undergo testing. In which, he was diagnosed with Schizophrenia at the age of nine, and given anti-psychotics for his paranoia and hallucinations.
Although he initially took them, he rebelled against the prospect when he turned fourteen and outright refused to take the medication. Initially, he stopped taking it because he wanted to prove he was stronger than the medication, that he didn't need it to control his episodes. However, the longer he went without it, the more his paranoia told him that the medication was bad for him, as though a mind-controlling device. In more recent years, he has tried to get back on it. But, he has a hard time following through with getting back into medication because of the side effects that occur upon starting it back up again, from minour things such as dry mouth and irritation to more complicated effects such as cognitive impairment and muscle spasms that typically occur within the first few weeks of starting up the medication. Disliking the feelings of such, and thus being out of control in the situations, tests his patience and makes him drop the medication almost as soon as he starts it back up again, becoming more adamant about not taking them each time he drops the effort again. It feels like too much of a hassle. In order to convince him to take his medication again, it would likely take someone who is persistent enough to continuously badger and support Orion through the initial phases of problematic side effects, making sure he actually takes the medication instead of just taking his word that he has, etc. It would take a babying, nagging process, but it would be possible.
As far as his copping mechanisms go, he still often struggles during an episode. He does his best to remind himself the hallucination isn't real, despite how real it feels, sounds, or looks. This is easier to handle with an hallucination episode than it is a paranoia episode, as it is easier to dismiss something visual than it is to tell yourself someone isn't out to get you. He takes steps as one would do with a panic attack, and this is found to be easier to implement if someone knows how to talk him through the process. For most of his hallucinations, so long as they're minour enough, such as figures that happen to be walking around or something he sees in the corner of the room, he just tends to outright ignore it to the best of his abilities (although, he might glance at it occasionally, or even outright stare at it, if his fear is heightened from it). He is not above shutting himself away in his room or apartment, in the efforts to escape the episode, oftentimes even sedating himself with alcohol. On the off occasion, this can span days, but rarely lasts more than 48 hours.
Overall, he was a rather unmotivated kid, often barely passing his classes. Although he would enjoy playing with other children somewhat. He didn't have trouble making friends until high school, when he started rebelling against his medication and getting into fights left and right. When high school started, he would talk back to teachers and had low respect for authoritative figures. He could often be found sleeping in class if he wasn't outright daydreaming or struggling with his hallucinations. As a side result, he struggled to understand the material that was presented with, and has an average amount of intelligence. His preference was to sit far and away from others to avoid weird looks and interactions.
He joined in street fights frequently throughout high school, and a handful of suspensions. His aggressive personality was often met with intense dislike and fear. He had no intention of joining any gangs, since he prefers handing only himself. Hand-to-hand combat was a way to allow himself to unwind and not worry about what he sees or dreads, as well as being a way to make a few extra dollars when he wanted spending money. This behaviour only changed somewhat when they moved to Recolle, when he was seventeen. Although he would certainly not be above a fight, he mostly reclused instead, maladapting to the new surroundings, lacking a sense of familiarity. Although he still underwent the occasional fight inside school walls at being challenged, he reached out to people far less. He didn't like the idea of school sports because there were "limitations" set in place, and he prefers to do things his own way, adjusting however he deems necessary. He made no efforts to join clubs or any form of social gatherings.
As an additional side-effect to his rebellious stages as a teenager, he did try alcohol around the age of sixteen and found he enjoyed it, for subduing the feelings of hallucinations, and took to sneaking alcohol behind his parents backs until he was of legal drinking age. He also tried acid on the suggestion of one of the people he befriended through fighting and the trip left him ultimately panicked and helpless, causing him to have a negative view on drugs from that point forward. He definitely vowed to never do drugs again, and he'll abruptly disregard anyone who talks about any drug, no matter how insistent they are that the effects are not the same. He remembers the sensations and is thoroughly against the prospect.
His parents attempted to be rather supportive of Orion, trying not to grasp too hard in the fear of losing him altogether. Arguments and calls from school lead to scoldings, but outside of that, Orion had free reign on his life. And they just rather hoped he would shape up on his own, with maybe the occasional suggestion of a path for him.
Not taking the medication was, of course, met with many challenges. From being anti-social to being unable to hold down a steady job, his paranoia and hallucinations still mess with him, and can cause outbursts of emotion; although he will attempt to keep his composure for as long as he is able. Sometimes successfully, and other times not so much. His behaviours cause issues with keeping steady jobs, and he bounces between living at home with mom and dad or renting a small apartment to get away on his own for awhile until he's jobless and his money runs out. Orion has, however, started recently looking at college, wondering what he might like to do with his life. He just hasn't decided on anything solid yet and can from time to time be found in the library researching careers, almost ironically buried in books with intense focus as he tries to seek something out.
Thankfully, he has made at least a handful of friends from different walks of life, somehow. Such as meeting Baren (via permissions of![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
crudest) when he was 22, the two hit it off rather well, and Baren brings out a somewhat more social side to Orion. He also met and befriended Alex J. Mercer (via permissions of virions), and has been friends with him for two years, getting along with him primarily for their shared bluntness and disregard for authority.
Orion did have a very brief relationship with Zelos (via permissions ofcursedchosen) about a year ago, where Orion's friend, Baren, bailed on him at a party. As he was getting ready to leave, Zelos caught his attention, and drinking lead to heavy flirting. Near as Orion could tell, they hit it off pretty well. But Orion had an episode with his Schizophrenia, and the resulting distance that seemed to immediately follow made quite the impact on him. Zelos wouldn't return messages, said things completely out of line, and flirted with others in front of Orion. When Zelos broke it off about a week after they started, Orion became bitter about it, and is not above harassing Zelos on sight for what happened between them, often trying to mess up the model's hair along with levels of snark and ruthlessness shared between them. Because of the brief duration of intense feelings, Orion still has a rough time between desiring to get back together with Zelos and just wanting to drag him through the dirt in a love/hate sense.
He'll be starting the game in an apartment, as a neighbour to Fiacre Lachance (via permissions offlowrite), under the employ of Jaeger (via permissions of scythegun).
AU PERSONALITY:
Orion can be a bit of a quiet individual. He hardly takes interest in other people's lives unless something is being said directly to him. That's not to say he'll avoid communication altogether. He is a smartass and will say what he wants and means without batting an eye. Because he didn't fear repercussions from his parents, Orion is exceptionally honest, albeit blunt. Even about his condition. If people don't want to know, they shouldn't ask. He also expects others to look at him weird for his episodes, and tends to be rather surprised and puzzled in the aftermath when people go out of their way to help him calm down.
He is susceptible to the effects of his Schizophrenia, since he doesn't take his medication. He can be found yelling at nothing, giving blank spaces a rigid glare, and even being overly paranoid about other people. And it's more likely to startle than soothe him if someone touches him in one of these stages, causing him to lash out. He does have difficulties forming close bonds with people for these reasons.
He can tend to be a bit of a hermit, only really hanging out with people after being officially invited to (Yes, he will wait on that engraved invitation, thank you), and isn't exactly the epitome of social, even at his odd jobs. He can come across stern and unwilling to talk. And since he's blunt, when he does speak, it can come across rather offensively without him actually meaning to. He also has a rather 'messy' lifestyle and doesn't tend to pick up after himself in his own home. If anyone comes over, they will witness a disorganized chaos in his apartment (his own) or room (parents' house). If he's visiting someone, he can be expected to at least pick up behind himself - it's only polite, after all. Though he may not wash dishes if offered food or the like. His attention span only goes so far in doing chores.
His temper is hardly triggered, and if he ends up in a fight, he tends to rather find it relaxing, as one would a sense of therapy. Whether that means someone's pissed off at him and engaging in a brawl, or if it just happens to be a friendly sparring match, he usually enjoys himself in it. He is easily triggered into fights be being called a 'chicken' or anything similar, not out of temper, but just because he's eager to prove himself at that point. His temper is very lowkey and tends to only come out in snarky remarks or outright insults, although his temper is extremely intensified around Zelos. However, he can be easily annoyed by just about anyone. Above all, though, he hates being restricted and can be found breaking rules because of it if he feels they shouldn't exist or apply to the situation. For this reason, he has issues accepting authority.
Orion is also prone to addictions, as for a means of an escape. Alcohol and cigarettes are his primary vices. Not so big on drugs, since he tried acid once and it freaked him out worse than his hallucinations. But waking up with hangovers or chain smoking a few packs a day are things he's been guilty of time and again, often as ways to cope with or dull the hallucinations and stress of dealings with thereof. Being responsible is certainly not in his top list of priourities.
In similar fashion to his preincarnation, he doesn't believe in hurting innocents. He will go out of his way to make sure that someone who isn't supposed to be there doesn't get hurt. He is still blunt and callous in his actions and reactions to people, and still tends to keep mostly to himself, especially in dealing with those that aren't close to him. He is, undoubtedly, still a smartass and takes solace in combat. He also enjoys throwing taunts at people, just to agitate and provoke them. He also tends to have a soft spot for those going through a rough time in a position he's experienced himself, such as helping out cashiers when they're getting yelled at by customers. He knows what it's like to be on the un-fun side of the stick and he will stick up for the little guy who might get stuck in such a circumstance.
He still can't cover his reactions, being easy to read if he knows something others don't, especially if asked a continuous stream of questions. This makes it a problem if authority figures catch him, or if anyone who cares asks him if he's holding up to his personal responsibilities. He makes no effort to hide the reactions, and even if he says nothing at all, people may still be able to tell just by the look on his face. He still has a loud, scolding side when he finds someone he cares about involved, whether it be for doing something they shouldn't do, or chewing someone out for harassing someone innocent. And when something is his fault, he steps up to the plate to take the blame so that others aren't forced to take responsibility for it.
He is still slow to infuriate, with his temper coming out more with words than actions, both of which are an exception in Zelos' presence. And though insults like chicken will still trigger him into a fight mode, he isn't as prone to berserker habits, not having been subjected to the traumas of the Keroberos Collar at this point in his life. And he shares the resemblance of wanting to do things his way when he wants to do them, and it can make him pretty unreliable to those who aren't close to him.
Observing and being perceptive is kind of a 50/50, since the paranoid side in his Schizophrenia gets in the way, and he's inclined to be suspicious of people because of it. If he were managed under his medication, his perceptions of people would improve and he would be able to read between the lines more. Additionally, his Schizophrenia is something of a difference to his past life, where he had something of an alternate personality back then. Where he just had to keep the blood lust sedated before, he now has to appease things that no one else can see or hear. In a way this begs some sort of similarity since he combated the alternate personality on his own, he has also chosen to try and fight his Schizophrenia on his own.
In the differences, though, he doesn't retain his phobia of women. That fear is more channeled into the paranoid spectrum of his Schizophrenia, in which he suspects, and may even fear, most everyone, not just women. And a paranoid episode is more of a temporary effect than a prolongued phobia. He's also not a death seeker; he doesn't want to die, he just.... shows little regard for living, either. Such is the problem with being an unmotivated, unmedicated Schizophrenic. He's less broody and is actually more inclined to give a genuine smile at whatever appeals to him. Additionally, he's prone to alcoholism and smoking, where his preincarnation wasn't even remotely into such.
Orion has lead something of an interesting life. Born as an albino and generally raised in Rapid City, South Dakota. He first started responding to voices no one else could hear late in his eighth year. Initially, his parents just chalked it up to some imaginary friend. But, then he started displaying characteristics of seeing things others couldn't, often tugging at his mother's shirt to look at whatever he was seeing, or sometimes having fits of screams and crying over the hallucinations, reactions that could almost be described as having night terrors while being awake. When he had difficulty being soothed back to calm more than a handful of times, they took him in to a therapist, who recommended he undergo testing. In which, he was diagnosed with Schizophrenia at the age of nine, and given anti-psychotics for his paranoia and hallucinations.
Although he initially took them, he rebelled against the prospect when he turned fourteen and outright refused to take the medication. Initially, he stopped taking it because he wanted to prove he was stronger than the medication, that he didn't need it to control his episodes. However, the longer he went without it, the more his paranoia told him that the medication was bad for him, as though a mind-controlling device. In more recent years, he has tried to get back on it. But, he has a hard time following through with getting back into medication because of the side effects that occur upon starting it back up again, from minour things such as dry mouth and irritation to more complicated effects such as cognitive impairment and muscle spasms that typically occur within the first few weeks of starting up the medication. Disliking the feelings of such, and thus being out of control in the situations, tests his patience and makes him drop the medication almost as soon as he starts it back up again, becoming more adamant about not taking them each time he drops the effort again. It feels like too much of a hassle. In order to convince him to take his medication again, it would likely take someone who is persistent enough to continuously badger and support Orion through the initial phases of problematic side effects, making sure he actually takes the medication instead of just taking his word that he has, etc. It would take a babying, nagging process, but it would be possible.
As far as his copping mechanisms go, he still often struggles during an episode. He does his best to remind himself the hallucination isn't real, despite how real it feels, sounds, or looks. This is easier to handle with an hallucination episode than it is a paranoia episode, as it is easier to dismiss something visual than it is to tell yourself someone isn't out to get you. He takes steps as one would do with a panic attack, and this is found to be easier to implement if someone knows how to talk him through the process. For most of his hallucinations, so long as they're minour enough, such as figures that happen to be walking around or something he sees in the corner of the room, he just tends to outright ignore it to the best of his abilities (although, he might glance at it occasionally, or even outright stare at it, if his fear is heightened from it). He is not above shutting himself away in his room or apartment, in the efforts to escape the episode, oftentimes even sedating himself with alcohol. On the off occasion, this can span days, but rarely lasts more than 48 hours.
Overall, he was a rather unmotivated kid, often barely passing his classes. Although he would enjoy playing with other children somewhat. He didn't have trouble making friends until high school, when he started rebelling against his medication and getting into fights left and right. When high school started, he would talk back to teachers and had low respect for authoritative figures. He could often be found sleeping in class if he wasn't outright daydreaming or struggling with his hallucinations. As a side result, he struggled to understand the material that was presented with, and has an average amount of intelligence. His preference was to sit far and away from others to avoid weird looks and interactions.
He joined in street fights frequently throughout high school, and a handful of suspensions. His aggressive personality was often met with intense dislike and fear. He had no intention of joining any gangs, since he prefers handing only himself. Hand-to-hand combat was a way to allow himself to unwind and not worry about what he sees or dreads, as well as being a way to make a few extra dollars when he wanted spending money. This behaviour only changed somewhat when they moved to Recolle, when he was seventeen. Although he would certainly not be above a fight, he mostly reclused instead, maladapting to the new surroundings, lacking a sense of familiarity. Although he still underwent the occasional fight inside school walls at being challenged, he reached out to people far less. He didn't like the idea of school sports because there were "limitations" set in place, and he prefers to do things his own way, adjusting however he deems necessary. He made no efforts to join clubs or any form of social gatherings.
As an additional side-effect to his rebellious stages as a teenager, he did try alcohol around the age of sixteen and found he enjoyed it, for subduing the feelings of hallucinations, and took to sneaking alcohol behind his parents backs until he was of legal drinking age. He also tried acid on the suggestion of one of the people he befriended through fighting and the trip left him ultimately panicked and helpless, causing him to have a negative view on drugs from that point forward. He definitely vowed to never do drugs again, and he'll abruptly disregard anyone who talks about any drug, no matter how insistent they are that the effects are not the same. He remembers the sensations and is thoroughly against the prospect.
His parents attempted to be rather supportive of Orion, trying not to grasp too hard in the fear of losing him altogether. Arguments and calls from school lead to scoldings, but outside of that, Orion had free reign on his life. And they just rather hoped he would shape up on his own, with maybe the occasional suggestion of a path for him.
Not taking the medication was, of course, met with many challenges. From being anti-social to being unable to hold down a steady job, his paranoia and hallucinations still mess with him, and can cause outbursts of emotion; although he will attempt to keep his composure for as long as he is able. Sometimes successfully, and other times not so much. His behaviours cause issues with keeping steady jobs, and he bounces between living at home with mom and dad or renting a small apartment to get away on his own for awhile until he's jobless and his money runs out. Orion has, however, started recently looking at college, wondering what he might like to do with his life. He just hasn't decided on anything solid yet and can from time to time be found in the library researching careers, almost ironically buried in books with intense focus as he tries to seek something out.
Thankfully, he has made at least a handful of friends from different walks of life, somehow. Such as meeting Baren (via permissions of
crudest) when he was 22, the two hit it off rather well, and Baren brings out a somewhat more social side to Orion. He also met and befriended Alex J. Mercer (via permissions of virions), and has been friends with him for two years, getting along with him primarily for their shared bluntness and disregard for authority.Orion did have a very brief relationship with Zelos (via permissions of
cursedchosen) about a year ago, where Orion's friend, Baren, bailed on him at a party. As he was getting ready to leave, Zelos caught his attention, and drinking lead to heavy flirting. Near as Orion could tell, they hit it off pretty well. But Orion had an episode with his Schizophrenia, and the resulting distance that seemed to immediately follow made quite the impact on him. Zelos wouldn't return messages, said things completely out of line, and flirted with others in front of Orion. When Zelos broke it off about a week after they started, Orion became bitter about it, and is not above harassing Zelos on sight for what happened between them, often trying to mess up the model's hair along with levels of snark and ruthlessness shared between them. Because of the brief duration of intense feelings, Orion still has a rough time between desiring to get back together with Zelos and just wanting to drag him through the dirt in a love/hate sense.He'll be starting the game in an apartment, as a neighbour to Fiacre Lachance (via permissions of
flowrite), under the employ of Jaeger (via permissions of scythegun).AU PERSONALITY:
Orion can be a bit of a quiet individual. He hardly takes interest in other people's lives unless something is being said directly to him. That's not to say he'll avoid communication altogether. He is a smartass and will say what he wants and means without batting an eye. Because he didn't fear repercussions from his parents, Orion is exceptionally honest, albeit blunt. Even about his condition. If people don't want to know, they shouldn't ask. He also expects others to look at him weird for his episodes, and tends to be rather surprised and puzzled in the aftermath when people go out of their way to help him calm down.
He is susceptible to the effects of his Schizophrenia, since he doesn't take his medication. He can be found yelling at nothing, giving blank spaces a rigid glare, and even being overly paranoid about other people. And it's more likely to startle than soothe him if someone touches him in one of these stages, causing him to lash out. He does have difficulties forming close bonds with people for these reasons.
He can tend to be a bit of a hermit, only really hanging out with people after being officially invited to (Yes, he will wait on that engraved invitation, thank you), and isn't exactly the epitome of social, even at his odd jobs. He can come across stern and unwilling to talk. And since he's blunt, when he does speak, it can come across rather offensively without him actually meaning to. He also has a rather 'messy' lifestyle and doesn't tend to pick up after himself in his own home. If anyone comes over, they will witness a disorganized chaos in his apartment (his own) or room (parents' house). If he's visiting someone, he can be expected to at least pick up behind himself - it's only polite, after all. Though he may not wash dishes if offered food or the like. His attention span only goes so far in doing chores.
His temper is hardly triggered, and if he ends up in a fight, he tends to rather find it relaxing, as one would a sense of therapy. Whether that means someone's pissed off at him and engaging in a brawl, or if it just happens to be a friendly sparring match, he usually enjoys himself in it. He is easily triggered into fights be being called a 'chicken' or anything similar, not out of temper, but just because he's eager to prove himself at that point. His temper is very lowkey and tends to only come out in snarky remarks or outright insults, although his temper is extremely intensified around Zelos. However, he can be easily annoyed by just about anyone. Above all, though, he hates being restricted and can be found breaking rules because of it if he feels they shouldn't exist or apply to the situation. For this reason, he has issues accepting authority.
Orion is also prone to addictions, as for a means of an escape. Alcohol and cigarettes are his primary vices. Not so big on drugs, since he tried acid once and it freaked him out worse than his hallucinations. But waking up with hangovers or chain smoking a few packs a day are things he's been guilty of time and again, often as ways to cope with or dull the hallucinations and stress of dealings with thereof. Being responsible is certainly not in his top list of priourities.
In similar fashion to his preincarnation, he doesn't believe in hurting innocents. He will go out of his way to make sure that someone who isn't supposed to be there doesn't get hurt. He is still blunt and callous in his actions and reactions to people, and still tends to keep mostly to himself, especially in dealing with those that aren't close to him. He is, undoubtedly, still a smartass and takes solace in combat. He also enjoys throwing taunts at people, just to agitate and provoke them. He also tends to have a soft spot for those going through a rough time in a position he's experienced himself, such as helping out cashiers when they're getting yelled at by customers. He knows what it's like to be on the un-fun side of the stick and he will stick up for the little guy who might get stuck in such a circumstance.
He still can't cover his reactions, being easy to read if he knows something others don't, especially if asked a continuous stream of questions. This makes it a problem if authority figures catch him, or if anyone who cares asks him if he's holding up to his personal responsibilities. He makes no effort to hide the reactions, and even if he says nothing at all, people may still be able to tell just by the look on his face. He still has a loud, scolding side when he finds someone he cares about involved, whether it be for doing something they shouldn't do, or chewing someone out for harassing someone innocent. And when something is his fault, he steps up to the plate to take the blame so that others aren't forced to take responsibility for it.
He is still slow to infuriate, with his temper coming out more with words than actions, both of which are an exception in Zelos' presence. And though insults like chicken will still trigger him into a fight mode, he isn't as prone to berserker habits, not having been subjected to the traumas of the Keroberos Collar at this point in his life. And he shares the resemblance of wanting to do things his way when he wants to do them, and it can make him pretty unreliable to those who aren't close to him.
Observing and being perceptive is kind of a 50/50, since the paranoid side in his Schizophrenia gets in the way, and he's inclined to be suspicious of people because of it. If he were managed under his medication, his perceptions of people would improve and he would be able to read between the lines more. Additionally, his Schizophrenia is something of a difference to his past life, where he had something of an alternate personality back then. Where he just had to keep the blood lust sedated before, he now has to appease things that no one else can see or hear. In a way this begs some sort of similarity since he combated the alternate personality on his own, he has also chosen to try and fight his Schizophrenia on his own.
In the differences, though, he doesn't retain his phobia of women. That fear is more channeled into the paranoid spectrum of his Schizophrenia, in which he suspects, and may even fear, most everyone, not just women. And a paranoid episode is more of a temporary effect than a prolongued phobia. He's also not a death seeker; he doesn't want to die, he just.... shows little regard for living, either. Such is the problem with being an unmotivated, unmedicated Schizophrenic. He's less broody and is actually more inclined to give a genuine smile at whatever appeals to him. Additionally, he's prone to alcoholism and smoking, where his preincarnation wasn't even remotely into such.
